scrolling down the news, and my eyes stuck at the death of child.
then, the death of innocent girl, just because she's at the wrong place, at wrong time.
and suddenly i wonder how it'll be if that's me.
if i'm at the wrong place, wrong time.
(but no, there's no wrong with death. i really believe that we'll died, surely die when the time comes. not late, and never early).
but just a second, the news got me thinking of the "what if".
just what if .. i die, then no need to pay ptptn, no need to think about the world's problem, no more heartache, no more mindache, no more sadness for me, no more dunia.
and i'll be free from this dunia. be free from all of the problems. be free from sadness, tears, guilt...
and also free from every single happiness that i dont want to forget, from every smiles that i prayed hard for it to not go away.
and .. yeah.. this isnt the right way of thinking. the question of life and death, the problem of life and death shouldnt be solved in this way. killing yourself or asking for death is never the answer for every problems that we have to endure in this dunia.
this life, this soul is a gift. from The Merciful God, to us; the supposedly faithful servant.
Astaghfirullahal'azim, forgive me for sometimes thinking in this kinda **** way. islam is always a way of life. islam is the way of life. islam is the rule.
Whatever hardship we face in this dunia, face it properly. we've got AlQuran, we've got 'alim ulama', we've got endless guidance, hints from The Above. Livin in this dunia is easy if we follows the rule (AlQuran and AsSunnah..yeah,, i know).
By trying to stay away from the rule, making our own rule, thats what make this life getting harder. Don't solely depend on yourself, cause we've got Allah The Great, The Forgiveness, The One.
Pray sincerely, ask for guidance, work as best as you can, and enjoy the result.
Because ,
"For indeed, with hardship will be ease. Indeed, with hardship will be ease.
#Quran 94:5-6"
Sincerely,
the me who's just recently tired.
